Engagement

Hello Sunday! Boy it's a nice day. Boy was it nice to see everyone yesterday. Back in the loop so to speak. It felt good to be at a team meeting, listening and learning. Yesterday made me realize just how much Kung fu is engrained in me. I have had a lot of realizations and have learnt a lot about myself these last few weeks.  More than I wanted to learn, but when you are determined to whip on your demons, you get more than what you want. Because that's what you need to deal with. Things that were coming to the grave are no longer locked in my mind. They have been released to the great creator.  Nightmares have subsided and fears are being squashed.  Self-confidence is starting to rocket upwards and onwards.  I have been to this level before, but I'm looking to go higher.  There was a blog about spritualism only a few days ago and it hit all sorts of cords in me.  It's true.  A person can do well on their own, but, when you find and massage your spirit, there is truly no end to the glories you can receive.
    Let's talk the physical side of Kung fu. Honestly, I haven't done a lot. I have been working a different part of my journey, and so, the numbers and reps have taken a hit. That's okay. It is like this. In order to properly invest in something, time needs to come from somewhere. You can't invest heavily in one thing without something else being sacrificed. Unfortunately, the numbers took the hit this time.  That's okay. The strength I'm feeling and the conversations I've had all come back to one realization. I will re-flourish, in time. I will be flying high, with time. I am happy I have a form or two to fall back into, as there is a demo coming up. And the demo is where we get to see just how well, we have prepared. We get to see, our training in action. I'm excited for this demo coming up. Mainly because I get to see everyone in action, but also, it means i can start stepping back into the weapon training again. The mighty escrimas get to hum again. It's a sound I miss. With patience brings greatness, and I will achieve that again. After this, little soul searching and destroying episode, there will be nothing but myself in the way of obtaining these goals. Let's see how far I can get these escrimas in a week!!
   So, we talked a lot about engagement during the Pandamoniom. So okay, we can start talking about the essence of it now.  Correct me if I'm wrong, but I gathered that, daily engagement is the key. The charities are just charities. What really matters is the conversations we can create about helping our fellows in need. Not just the lasses in Africa or the forgotten, abandoned pets. Not even just about the wolves or the starving in Nepal. Starting and keeping engagement. The conversation, get people's minds tickling with question. Until, they ask, the who, what and the when of it all.
  Okay, if I have gotten this right, then there's something I can start right here and right now. I can use this platform to create an awarness, and to maybe hear a question or two. A conversation about helping others. Other people who are like me. Others who suffer and struggle just to understand what in the heck just happened, how did that happen they ask. How did I get so wasted? I was only going to have one.....I was only going to have one. I don't understand why he can't just put a plug in the jug. I don't get why he won't stop being like that. I wish he/she would just stop. He's going to kill himself if he keeps this up! He has so much to live for, and yet he doesn't seem to care. Those poor children. Those are the questions I hear and face almost daily. Questions I work on and help others answer and accept. So, what are the answers, then Will? Well, I will answer those questions, but only in a personal, intimate setting. Eye ball to eye ball, face to face, mono eh mono! So that people, can properly understand the answers and questions. But in the mean time, I empower those who read this to look up and download a few songs, just to help create an awarness and get the conversation started, until we meet again. My part is this.  If people do honestly download and listen to this music, I will match what you spend and donate to the benevolent foundation. It isn't much, but it's where I'm starting!
  The artist is Mackelmore. The songs are St.Ides, Kevin, Otherside, Starting Over, Fallin, Inhale Deep, Contradiction, Vipassana.
  A note about this music, is it pretty real, he sings on some real deep topics, but, it is something that has stayed silent for too long. There are swears and some implied lyrics. You can find edited versions, but, a lot of the message is lost, when you change the wording. It's not as powerful. But, I honestly believe it is just as important for younger people to be knowledgable about these topics of drugs and alcohol abuse, as the adults in their worlds. It can and it will get away on you quickly, if you don't know what can happen. And I can happen to anyone. No matter whom you are! Trust me, I know!!

  So, I'm willing to have an intimate conversation, are you willing to ask the questions?

Thanks for your time
Humbly yours
Mr.Duncan

Checking In

  Why hello there! How is it going? Well I hope.  I'm doing pretty well myself. I do apologize for being so silent, but, I honestly did not have the words to describe what I'm doing, without jeopardizing a few traditions I follow. But, I think I have a way to have done both. Dance off! No, I'm kidding, but it is a neat song. Look it up, it's cleanish.

   In any event, it feels good to have commenced on the dirty work, that is my mind. Slowly, but eventually things will come together. These next few days are going to be very strenuous. Mentally and physically.  I'm at a point now, well, I have to be fearless and through to the deepest point of my soul. I have the questions written out, but the solutions will come in the next few days.  I'm quite excited about that. A few years ago when I did the same soul evaluation, I was as honest with myself  as as I was going to be at that point in time.  Which was good, but, today I can do better. Today, I have evolved further internally, and the next step is to be as brutally honest with myself as I am going to be today. I've come to learn about myself that I need to completely understand my part before I can get the lesson. My part and may part alone. It doesn't matter what was said to me or what was done. It only matters on if I react or act. Kindness is an act. Anger is a reaction. I know and am re-learning a path that has an one hundred percent success rate IF you work for it. Fearlessly and throughly, only, because your disease will follow in the shadows you leave behind. the one or two things that are still hiding or have turned into festering resentments.  Those one or two things, have hidden in self conjured  lies and deceit that you somehow believe. And you are twisting the words of others around so they suit your needs. Well, my next step involves a very in depth look into the shadows and opened dialogue with a fellow. I'm not scared, my flashlight is bright but i will admit, I am nervous.  There is stuff in there that was going to die with me. Not any more! I will not have that on my conscious any more, thank you ma'am.  It can be the higher powers. I'm all done hiding from a demon in my own mind.  Time to hand out the power bombs!! Time to reclaim my mind and soul.  The body will be okay for now. I must laser focus my vision. And I will. I am willing to accept whatever outcome happens.

    Something else, that has been taking the last of my free time is my horse puppy Bane. Man alive what a tale this pooch has.  We have enrolled ourselves in a training program with Bane, and it's been very interesting. So, it turns out that he's an Argentine Dogo. The trainer we are with made mention numerous times on his breed and was excited to work with him. Why? Because he's a Bane. For a good description,  Take a pit bull and give him steroids and five pounds of sugar and you have a Bane!  Yea isn't that awesome..... Actually it is. He's very smart and adapts and changes so quickly it's really awesome. Playing soccer is one of his favourite things and we have great battles for the ball.  If I am even gonna content to get the ball, "A game" the whole way. So, I have read on this kind of horse is that they take stubborn to a new level. The missus has been working hard with him and he's rebelling. Sometimes it's funny other times it's not as funny. He's just so powerful that when he desires everyone is going to have a rough time. He's jacked. Bane's shoulders are as big as mine! It's good though. Everyone is making progress and slowly, we are learning how to manage the Argetine
Dogo that is Bane!

   I wanted to mention a congrats to the monkeys for having a successful Pandamoniom. From what I've seen and heard it was a great time.  Good work, everyone.

The desire drives the change. Change leads to adaption and lessons. Lessons and adaptions lead to gifts. Gifts of happy joyous freedom.
Mr.Duncan