Homies

   Homies, homies;

“(I know you ain't there
That's why I just want to let you know something bro
You all know I love you
You all know you're my homies
And eh... Alright we'll talk later - peace!)

Let me ask you this about this life we live
And let me try to swerve some of this attention you give
To them distant ass relatives over ham dinner
If they really missed you so much
Why don't they just call a (Muthafucka) ?
If you wasn't blood, would you still have love?
Or infact does the blood make you think you have to love?
Look, I probably love my family more than anybody here
But my homies are family too, 3rd cousins' get outta here
Who was you with when you got tattooed?
And who was you trippin' with when you did them mushrooms?
And who thtruck  threw up all over your car?
And then felt worse than you about that shit in the morning? (Friends ya'll)”

       Violent J and Shaggy 2 Dope aka I.C.P. From the single Homies

Well, there’s two points in this beat I wanted to bring up. See, my family isn’t the strongest around. In fact we are pretty weak. But, with the passing of gramps, I feel, we all had a bit of a realization. One, this family of ours is going to fall apart and disappear if we don’t do something drastic soon. Two, I do love my family and all their insanity. I love them all.

   So, I made a pledge to all of them Thursday afternoon after grandpas memorial. I swore to all of them we are going to re-build this family and I will start this grass fire. Because, honestly, that is the greatest way to Honor grandpa. We have to build memories and friendships again. My cousins and I were tight as kids. Now, today, we barely know each other kids, or each other for that matter. Today, I’ve got phone numbers and emails, and this is happening I said. Be prepared for me I laughed at them! 

   This also, relates to my friends I have today. I’ve realized, I’ve only kept a small number of friends in my circle. That’s okay, but what I should do, I need to build better friendships with the friends I got. I have to. My grandfather lived a life surrounded by friends and family, and I am going to walk in his shoes. We are more alike than I honestly ever realized. That’s okay to realize today, because, well, I needed to feel this loss, before I could honestly realize what I was loosing. 

    So, all those things in the song above, maybe not as extreme as tripping on zoomers today, but, we can laugh and smile over campfires, and wiener roasts, and we can laugh in someone’s kitchen, or we can converse in the living room while hanging with the kids. It doesn’t matter about the ego anymore. I no longer care who crossed me in the yesterday’s. I don’t care. I today worry about today, and what can I do about today? How about being the guy who makes the phone call just to say hi. Why not? I don’t give one rat f@ck anymore. 

I need my family, I need my friends. I love them all. They all mean the world to me. I realize today, that I will loose my humanity, without them. I will loose what I always say I fight for. Who am I to judge any of them? Baby jebus, I’ve done some bad stuff in my life, and I am the last person that should put judgement down on anyone. Friend, family or foe. I will learn to love all of you again. Whether you like it or not, this families coming back together......

“......and that’s the bottom line cause Stone Cold says so.”

       Stone Cold Steve Austin 1964-present

Love you and remember, Bye for now

Mr.Duncan

The Passing

    Good am to you there. Well, today is the day we go say goodbye to grandpa. He passed very suddenly last week from a heart attack. On his way to the doctors. Fortuanatly/unfortuanatly, he passed in his car, but not while he was driving. Phew! I mean, well, you know what I mean.

    He was broken hearted. Grandma, passed almost ten years ago and gramps, just kinda gave up. He had tried for a bit to live without grandma, but, his heart and soul just wasn’t into it. And it was hard to listen to him talk about wanting to go. I was there to support and love and offer all sorts of compassion, like, hey gramps, we are still here for you! Or I bet it’s hard and do whatever you want, but, seriously gramps, we still want you in our lives. He would smile and say thanks and his thoughts would go back to wherever they where.

   As sad as that may be, my grandfather, was always on the move. Never sitting still. As a kid I spent a lot of time there. And we where always going somewhere. Even if it was just for coffees with his friends. Or just for some “ce”. What’s ce? Why that was our “code word” for going to get ice cream from Dairy Queen. That came about from when I was like 5 years old and it just stuck in the family. It’s kinda funny. It’s just what we call ice cream now for the last 30years! Haha. Or he’d stab you with his fork while we were eating supper. “I’d rather eat this little boys arm, num num num!” Kinda tearing up here folks.

    Well, what did I learn from grandpa? A lot. My love of cars and mechanics, came from hanging out in the garage for weeks on end. Working on classic cars. ‘59 Chrysler New Yorker ( one of the original gangster cars) ‘46 Ford two door sedan, ‘59 Chev Bel-air, glass top, ‘48 Mercury one tone pick up, (we still used that truck as a truck! It was awesome watching people’s reactions. This beautiful classic truck loaded with whatever trash and people’s jaws are on the streets!) you give gramps something mechanical to play with and it will be fixed polished and working better than new in no time. Not to mention his amazing capabilities to build things outta wood. That’s one trait I really picked up on and have truly come to enjoy. This summer, I plan on building a wind mill or a something along those lines for gramps!

    With all that on my mind, I try To stay positive. Simply because, I’ve accepted my mortality. I am a human and I will pass on one day. I’m on,y here for a blip on the pages of history. Will I/have I done grand and amazing things? I think so. It’s called showing my boys how to live without abusing every substance I can get my hands on. It’s showing how to love without boundaries. How to be the bigger person. I don’t care if someone insults you, it’s not worth the energy or the frustration. Instead of getting angry at others, maybe show compassion. Realize, everyone has a story to tell, and it is different than yours. There is something to learn from everyone. Are you willing to learn, or are you ignorant to life’s lessons? It’s up to you. You figure out the lessons. You learn to get through life and pass on a better life for everyone. It’s your responsibility and yours alone. Now go on and get living!!

Anyhow, I gotta get ready to roll out

   “If god built me a ladder to the heavens, I would climb it and elbow drop the world!”
Mick Foley aka. Mankind, Cactus Jack, Dude Love (1965-present)

Talk at ya
Mr.Duncan

Delete and Procure

Hey there fellow screeners! What’s going down? Well, umm. Fricken well casing is cracked and something is leaking somewhere and we are getting a sink hole (possibly) or my well is just straight up collapsing. Hahaha. Either way, fire-Trucks! Whatever the case, we have elected to replace the well entirely. It’s been fixed, looked at, talked about, quoted on, and repaired and hummed over. It’s just time to replace. The fixes I’m talking about that have been done are more like bandaids. I really don’t like bandaid fixes, so we are getting quotes to just drill an new well and be done with the old one. it will be nice. Besides, I started digging out the Crawlspaces, so, when I’m done there will be all sorts of room to remodel my mechanical for the house.

   The plan is to dig down around five six feet and build up the foundation, replace the weeping tile, sump pumps, and eventually replace the duct work, furnace, and all the copper piping. At least remodel it all do things are a bit more efficient. It will be great when I’m done.  The timeline isn’t really determined right now, as I’m digging by hand and filling 5 gallon buckets and taking it all out by hand.  Slow right now, there isn’t much room, but, shoot a couple more days down there and I should be able to stand up! That’s good news. Sure beats army crawling everywhere to inspect and fix stuff down there.

   It’s a lot of work, and it’s going to take a lot of time. That’s okay. I’m looking forward to the challenge, as, my job isn’t physically demanding at all. It’s actually the easiest job I’ve ever had! It truly is.  The only complicated part is showing up on time and learning the names of all the components and shit, and then remembering what goes where in storage. Which, quite, honestly, differs from mechanic to mechanic. Each mechanic has his own little plan , with his on fine details they like to see, and so on and so forth. The trick is, is to just figure out what each mechanic is sensitive about and move forward from there.  Let’s be honest, it’s not hard to show up on time, and names of stuff isn’t that hard. I just have a easily forgetting memory, especially, when I’m not all in at work. I’m there, i work hard, I pay attention, but, it’s not a passion. It’s a job.

    Honestly, as much as I started to despise ironworkingand as much as I did struggle so terribly on my last few gigs, it was my passion. I love ironworking. The freedom you have of being up near the birds. The freedom of not being a ground pounder. The freedoms
of not being surrounded by seagulls floundering around on the ground chasing my uneaten French fries! But, with all being said, I do enjoy the new challenge of learning a new trade. AND, the guys I work with, see my capabilities and my drive and, I tell you what they work hard with me. I hear things like, “hey will, do you know what this and this components do together? No? Oh well, come get learned!” And, I go and eat the information up. A couple hours later I’ll go back to the mechanic and try to explain what he explained to me. Thus seeing if I retained anything and honestly, to learn more from these guys. There are a few of real mechanics there, who have trudged their way through mud and water and rain, and have all this wonderful knowledge, that doesn’t do me any good in their heads. Time to get into mine.

   So, like everything else, I do, I’ll crush it. I’ll learn it, master it and move on to the next big challenge! Haha. I win.

Anyhow, I’m going to go do stuff and things.
 See ya on the flip side

“In every SCENERIO you ENCOUNTER in this life, PERSPECTIVE is evvvveeeerrrryyyyything! I must DELETE, DELETE, DELETE, DELETE the COMPETITION, so I can PROCURE, PROCURE, PROCURE, PROCURE, as laid out the the 7DETIES. Only then will the KNOWLEDGE of the WOKEN WARRIORS, ENERGIZE and STIMULATE, my WOKEN VESSELL!!!!! Hahahahahahahahha! Yyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaasssssssss!“
      Woken Matt Hardy (1974-present)

Yyyyyyyeeeeeeeeaaaaaasssssss. Simply Wonderfully Amazing
Talk to you
Mr.Duncan