Today today

 Well happy Monday morning!! How’s things today everyone? My week has been interesting I suppose. Sick kids and staying home. The youngest came down with a cold early in the week and the oldest boy got sick a few days later. So, I pulled the teacher dad routine and spent my days trying to teach my boys!! Haha. What a week that was! Good thing I’m actually prettty smart and I can keep up to grade 4 & 7 school work!! Yeah for me!! 

I kept going on forms and such, but I didn’t have a lot of gas this week! I got sick too and just drained the energy from me. Well, that and trying to be a teacher! Not as bad as it sounds, but, it’s definatly not my cup of tea! But, hey, I showed the boys different ways to accomplish math! We worked hard on sentences and then I started giving a bit of a history lesson in wrestling! Good old social studies! Who can tell me who the first Intercontinental Champion of WWE? And why did the introduction of that belt have such an everlasting effect on wrestling today? 

   Pat Patterson! 1979 the first tournament was held for the intercontinental championship. It was the first belt used for mid card wrestlers. It was important to this day because it’s the longest lasting, non-adultered belt in WWE. It’s considered prestigious because, normally, this belt is the beginning of heavyweight contender ship. It’s a trial period if you may. It’s also, where some top guys will fued, in order to bring characters back into the tv time, which eventually should lead to more tv and character development on tv. Finally it’s prestigious because, simply some of the people who have held that belt and the legacies they have left on the wrestling world! Start with the original champ Pat Patterson, one of the legit toughest and cleanest wrestlers to ever grace the Buisness, to the likes of Ricky Steamboat vs Macho Man Randy Savage! This was the fued that bumped Macho Man into main street stardom! Once Bret the Hitman Hart won the IC, within two years, he was in heavyweight contendership. Even to the match that just took place on Sunday night. AJ Styles vs Sami Zayne vs Jeff Hardy ladder match for the IC. AJ Styles is WWE main “across the world guy”! He’s wrestled with every major organization in wrestling and when you see AJ styles, it means championship style matches! Even when Styles makes mistakes or botches, it looks good! He makes wrestling look like Sifu Brinker makes Kung Fu look simple. The other two are awesome as it is, don’t get me wrong, and it was an awesome ladder match! Man, that would hurt jumping 15 Feet off of one ladder onto your opponent, whose laying on a ladder,  just to stop on concrete...I’m so envious. That’d be so much fun! It would hurt shit yeah, but once that pop hits....it’d be worth it! 

    Well, okay, than. Yes the Clash of Champions ppv just happened and I thought it was a solid show! A few wtf moments, but it’s wrestling! It’s not always supposed to make sense! Just smile and nod! 

   And as for all else, Kung fu is going well! Sticking to the basics, and just working on the forms and things I know! With this cold and such, I’m electing to just stay at home for the time being and just keep working on the basics. 

   I am putting together a plan to take my health and well-being back. My breathing and stamina really do suck, so, I’m goi g to crush this smoking thing while I’m chilling at home! Ohh gawd!! I’m already anxious and sweaty and trying to trip myself up! My quit date is approaching fast and I have slowed down on the intake of poison, now, I just have to believe I can live without a cigarette! I see everyone not smoking, so, I’d like to not smoke too. Besides at $15 a day, man does that get old fast!!! 

So, here’s to a week of meltdowns and confusion!! I watched one of my best buddies just quit, with some help and a lot of will power! And I want to too. I’m kinda sick of stinking and not breathing and looking like a leather purse and feeling like crap! I’ve smoked since I was like 10. I took it up full time around 12/13. Peer pressure? Being a dumb kid, not respecting myself, not giving myself a chance to succeed? I don’t know why I started smoking! But, I did, and here I am, looking at these sticks of death trying so hard to figure out why I enjoy them? 

Anyhow, if you can figure the logic behind smoking, let me know! And if not, well, I’ll talk you soon any which way!! Have a great week team

Thanks for your time

Mr.Duncan

Well....

 Yeah hey there! How y’all doing in this fine Sunday morning? Well I’m okay I do suppose. Not super great but not in the dumps. I’m flatlined!! Which is actually an amazing finisher! The Flatliner. Mil Muertes aka Ricky Banderas has a beautiful flatliner!!  If I had a wrestling promotion, I’d straight up have Ricky as my top guy!! Yeah and he’d fued with the likes of bray Wyatt, ricochet, Pentagon Jr and a few guys from NJPW. I honestly can’t spell their names.....but they are great! Japanese pro wrestling is much harder hitting and more of a shoot match. And a shoot match is basically a full on fight! Not near as many pulled moves!! You can totally hear the difference!! Ha whoa sidetracked  

You know I learnt a bit about myself last week. A lot of what I learnt is not new to me, just lots of reminders. Little resets. Much needed! I did get caught up in making that money and damn I was making money.... Our minds are such a powerful entity and if given room to grow, oh the wonders we can wonder.  If given a dark room oh the things that can fester. It’s truly amazing. I mean either way you choose to go, obviously there’s reprocusions. Consequences that can lead us to glory or to gloom. 

I let my mind go to the darkness. It was a distinct choice. I remember the talk I had...okay, just a few days okay!! I like the punishment I guess? I don’t know! It’s a bad habit to keep, but, for me anyhow, It’s a useful tool when used properly. I feel anyhow! I used to love the insanity of everything and as I’ve grown up, I have tried to walk away from insane thoughts and people. These weeks were hard because, I’ve had to make real tough decisions about moving forward in life and who gets to ride with me from hence forward! 

I’ve grown tiresome of being a scapegoat for certain people in my circle, and now, even after talks, they just will never understand until they are willing to take honest looks at themselves. I’m all done caring, all done. Time to move on with my life. Something I should have done years and years ago, but, I kept them around because family...

Well, onto new things and places in life. This is gonna be great. I am very excited to move forward with out people holding me back. I’ve got my plan on paper, I have a great mental attitude about moving forward with Kung fu. And I’m going to continue kicking the crap outta life! Life got me a few weeks ago, I’m rebounding and coming back with fists flying man! I’m not going to give up and roll over. Not today and not tomorrow! 

Kung fu, is the best release I have. I have some solid teammates, I have some amazing teachers and have managed to continue to build up an awesome friendship that sprouted outta the IHC. One of my strongest role models has come from Kung fu. Some of my favourite people I’ve met in class. My biggest supports are on this school. Yo, I honestly have a tattoo based around silent river Kung fu. I straight up asked permission to include srkf on my piece!! Forever implanted on my being. Yeah, like a tag! Sure whatever. It’s a constant reminder of where my strength comes from. Of where my mind belongs. The strongest  part of my spirit comes from silent river. Honestly, we have techniques that literally rip shoulders apart, but we don’t. That’s strength. The ability to not hurt, even though you can! 

I don’t want to jump on my own band wagon to early and say how amazing I’m doing, cause that’s silly. I need more action. More results. I have a mission, I have a game plan and I have some awesome teachers. It’s time to truly utilize my time. 

I want to be blogging about my physical breakthroughs more so obviously, I need to train more and more. This routine is going to go well for me! Just gotta stick to the plan. Push ups and sit ups in the am, kids to school, prep supper, get chores done, lunch, train and family time afterwards. It would be silly if I can not get a few hours of training in a day again! What also am I going to do? Smash darts? Done enough of that! 

I just want to say, I hope this wasn’t too aggressive. I just kinda wanted to put it all out there and just have it out of my mind. I’m an aggressive fella to begin with and then I get wound up and it’s like a tornado some days! Ha. Seriously though, again the power of blogging and accountability! 

Okay teammates! I think that’s all the rambeling I have for now. Hopefully it’s coherent and understandable! 

Thanks for your time

Mr.Duncan

Knees, elbows and fists

 Hello there! How are ya? I’m better! Really I am. Got things sorted out. I am fairly straightforward now, again. Ahh life’s curveballs and groin shots! Learning lessons. I am over this work situation. Forget them! 

Any which way, back to getting that plan together. Honestly I knew I wasn’t going to stick to anything until I got closure from that last spot. So here we are. This past weekend I worked hard a changing my attitude and I focused just how fortunate I am. A few of my friends reached out and did the old check up. Since I’ve been gone I’ve had numerous reach outs from old friends. Like some of the boys from back when! That’s cool. Every one is all familied up and such. It’s nice to see. Didn’t think we all where gonna make it!! Haha! 

King fu wise, I moved forward in one aspect, and seriously just hit the heavy bag. I did not do forms. Not hand nor weapon. I truly just smashed the bag. The only thing I worried about was stance and working my quadrants. Trying to get that snap all lined up! Just break faces! I wanted raw power. Let me see what’s hiding in here? Knees, elbows and fists oh my! How I missed the heavy! I didn’t have the luxury of a heavy bag in gp, so I wanted to put a literal hole in that heavy bag. Believe me I tried. Man, and I threw Twiztid on bleeding ears loud and zoned in! Haha. It wasn’t a flurry of flailing. No no, it was and is a calculated de-construction. I ran scenarios in my mind and played with techniques. Times like these I wish I had like a robot that you could press a button and you got a fight partner!! How cool would that be?!? I’ll take two please!! 

And then, well...that’s about it....see ya later folks

Thanks for your time!

Me.Duncan

Parental advisory....seriously...more of a pg13ish I rewrote this like too many times so this is it.

 Hi. Seriously, I’m pretty off. I’m not really all here right now. I’ll get there. I find blogging is a great place to write things out. I find if I’m asking the write questions and listen to me words, I’ll find hints and such about what’s next. You know what I mean? Just kinda write and hopefully some semblance of coherent language comes out? I really don’t know what to write. I’m scattered. Just had the old L-Bomb dropped on me. Saturday morning having coffee with my kids, “Oh quite please, I gotta take this! Oh hey boss! This is odd what’s up? I’m laid off? oh cool, thanks. Oh yah I’ll be sure to drop off your gas card...

 Upstairs I’m pretty mad. Straight up pissed. But, this is the calmest I’ve been since sat morning. So, As, I’ve been documenting and sharing with everyone, I’ve been working outta town minimum 24-4. Last shift was 31 days on. I’ve sacraficed a lot to be where I was with my company. I was the go to guy. I was running equipment and cleaning the site. I was jumping and helping picking rocks load me up, let’s do this boys. Rocks flying man! I earned the respect of my peers and the respect of most my bosses. I’ve missed every Kung fu engagement and a fair number of online classes, so I could work....I’ve watched my kids frustrations grow through a computer screen because I can’t give his hug. I’ve sacrificed and given up a lot. Too much it seams. God dammit I got into a full on yelling match with my beautiful wife about working for this outfit and I still show up. “It’s gonna work out baby. I promise. Please, this will be good. I can feel it in my bones. I’m gonna bring the ironworker to a pipeline and blow their minds”....fudge sakes. I honestly thought with everything I had given and the A+’s I get at work for working like a fun demon, I was gold. Straight up, I’ve had inspectors write up reports and send them to my office on me, for the work I do. Well, as I’ve been told. I have had the head inspector ask me, how’s your back?  Youre carrying the crew on this project...the HEAD inspector. Nine times outta ten they don’t give a hoot about you, because you don’t matter. Like at all. 

 Everything was good, until some office politics. Stuff I had nothing to do with. A lot of really not cool stuff. Stuff in an office I’m 5hours away from and have never had business in. But, my name came up and with no opportunity to say anything about anything, I’m down the road. Get out! Just leave.....cool thanks. Yes I thanked my old boss for at least calling. I mean I was standing and bullshitting with you on Thursday afternoon. The week prior I’m, specifically told not too worry. I’ll keep you busy Willy! Yeah no worries?!? Then too have the gumption to call me on my days off, because I don’t give enough already, and lay me off....over the phone? Punk me like that?!? That one hurt. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been laid off lots, lay off is time off! I used to look forward to layoffs!! Layoffs meant job was done unless the bosses liked you! But I have always been looked in the eye and let go. Over the phone...bust your.....with my.....and then I’ll .....and place things......friend! Muhahaha  fill in the blanks, ahaha at your own risk. 

   That’s just fun fine I said to myself. I’ll show them. But, a few hours later, I was offered an opportunity in a different kinda field. And good honest work none the less. Just a few hours later! Here maybe try this! So, it’s on the table and that offer was a great pick me up! I’m very grateful but going to hold on right now. I’m going to take a week or so and just kinda hang out. Get my mind back. Re focus and blast through new doors. Get caught up at home. Actually be dad! I do know this, yeah, I’m disappointed about work, something else will happen for me. There’s a lot happening in my field, so, I just gotta look around. 

  So, that’s kinda that. Something else will work out, it always does. Sometimes quickly sometimes slowly, it will always work out. Anyhow, I’m gonna go finish cleaning out my apartment, hopefully that doesn’t catch on fire or some shit, it’d be my luck lately! Ha. Laws of attractions, my arse. Forget the pandemic, this was the worst summer of my life. This was not the outcome I was looking and hoping for! I lost. Okay I’ll tap out today. But tomorrow, you’d best look out. I’m not hiding. I’m hitting this like a bull on a clown. Sure, I’m knocked down and hurting and pissed, doesn’t mean I’m out. It doesn’t mean, it’s over. This is journeyman stuff. It’s mind twists like this and challenges like this that I eat for breakfast. I trudge the path for my happy destiny, because no one else will and I love it because no one else can. This is nothing more than fuel for me to use. Absoluelty, I’m on the sidelines licking my wounds and kicking water bottles, you bet. But, all these people really did was piss me off. Determined? Sure and whatever other word used to describe that. For lack of better terms, I’ll show them, every single one of them. I’m not done and I will succeed. 

I know what I’m capable of when I’m like this. I know how focused I can get. This is good. I know where I can go. I know just what I’m capable of, if I turn this mental train wreck around and just start breathing again. It’s a wonderful place, with continued success, just different victories. Take the step...

 No bad days, just bad moments.

I’m here on my patio; writing my blog

Thanks for your time

Mr.Duncan