Random thoughts

Hello there folks. So I've been trying different ways to prepare myself for the challenges ahead. Different routines different wake up times, etc. I will be the first to admit that I have not done as much as I have wanted to lately. But, it is a lot more than I have done before. And right now I'm rolling with the excuse that I am very tired from work. Not that I have been physically exhausted lately, but just non-stop since the end of Xmas. I do not enjoy working like a dog. In fact it really angers me off, pouring in the hours, but it is a necessary evil. And I'm working with a good group of fellas. Makes it far more bearable! And this project is a huge challenge so that's kinda neat too.
  So on wednesday I got a phone call from my youngest boy. He is three and the phone call goes like this. "Daddy you coming to kung fu?"  "No little man. I'm in Yellowknife still. Next week!" "Okay daddy. Bye". Haha little guy tugs my heart every single day. Later that night I was talking to the missus and she was telling me that the youngest is at the back of the class doing his best at push ups and trying to participate the best he can. If that isn't inspiring I don't know what is. This little kid without being instructed just starts busting out warm-ups with the class. And sifu takes time to help him out. Man that's awesome. Truly makes me want to train more and harder. Not just for me or sifu, But for my boys. Thru me, at least I would like to believe, that I can prove to them that they can be anything or whatever they want to be if they work for it.
   And quickly I was talking with some friends of mine and the topic pride came up. I believe there was some confusion. It was brought up how pride can be a killer for some people. Inflating the ego beyond any sense of realism. Now for myself, that is not how I see pride and ego. Of the two ego is the killer and here is why I see it like that. I am a proud man. I am very proud of who I have evolved into in the last few years. I'm very proud of my accomplishments in the last few years. But being proud of all this I have to remember that I did not do any of these things on my own. There were "external forces" at work putting people, places, and things in my path in order to help me out! But when I forget about the help I got from others and those above, I take complete ownership of everything, thus driving my ego. And once I feed that ego and forget those whom have helped me I stop growing and start dying again. I tried to do everything on my own and my way only. Only thing I got was a death certificate. So even when i thought I was doing it on my own, I wasn't. The devil was.
But I guess that's it for now so...

Humbly yours
Mr.Duncan