So hey there. I have been like really excited about changing directions in life and man I’m nervous. But, so far the most exciting thing I’ve found, is I get to really work on a part of my personality that’s lacked for a long time. People skills. I don’t have a lot of them and I’m going to have to learn how to build a clientele. Making small talk, meaningful, but small talk! I’m not a fan of it! 

So, in order for this new life to completely come together, not only do I have to learn a whole new part of construction, I, by default, get to work on my greatest character defect! 

Good gracious....hahaha. Yeah I had the same thought! I can’t go beating people until their moral improves. Not any more, I suppose! This isn’t the pipeline bro, this is actually the Alberta licensing office...let go of him Will. You need this guy alive!! Hahaha. 

No swearing I can’t throw stuff at my co-workers and laugh! If you can dodge a wrench you can dodge a ball!! You know or laugh when we fall down the mud stairs face first in the mud...wait a second... I’ll be the boss! Yes I can!! Phew! That’s a relief. 

It’s a relief knowing that soon, hopefully, with commitment and hard work, I can honestly be the boss I’ve always wanted to have. One who does care and one who isn’t going to turbo their employees first sign of management! Hot dawg folks. That’s exciting. I’m the management!!

Tick Tock

 Howdy folks! How’s it today? It’s good here. So, well, life has decided to curve ball me again! So that’s cool. At this point, whatever, bring it on!! 

 I had a job come up. This new boss gave me less than 24hrs notice to be on site, four hours away. After I pay, out of pocket, for site orientations and do that garbage online! So I did the math, after travel costs, hotels, food, all other my expensive to go to work for less than a week and come home to sit again I’d come home with 500$ if I eat the daily special at McDonald’s and 300$ if I eat like a human...well, I very politely declined this job. My temper flared up, when I read his hurry up and get here bs text! The thing I can not stand is, yes, I was asking for work, but, because of a lack of planning and communication does not constitute an emergency on my part....sorry, not my problem! 

 This is the garbage I no longer desire to deal with. I made sure to tell the owner how much I appreciate his efforts to try to get me some cash. He really didn’t need to even answer my text last month. And I consider, what he did to try to find work for me is above and beyond what a lot of people are doing right now. Solid cat! 

Honestly folks, I was dreading getting back into pipelines and construction. My stress and temper has really started to flare up. So what to do? The missus and I have a solid plan about moving forward. 

We had another solid conversation about going back to work! I expressed how much I’m sick of chasing the dollar bill and how I’m so sick of pouring absolutely everything I have into someone else’s dream and company. I’m so sick and tired of making a huge profit for someone else, breaking my body, sacrificing my family for some dude who writes my cheques? Does he even know my name?  

I told her, I am not doing that anymore! I won’t. I have no problem suffering and struggling for me and my family! But, I’m not doing it for some corporate pig anymore. So, we decided, that I’m going to school on Jan 4! Pulled the trigger people. I said to heck with this. I’m going to work for me from now on! 

That’s correct I start school on Jan 4! I’m starting with hone inspection certificate at nait. I will have a company within a calendar year and that’s the end of that! It could take up to 8 months to get this very, if I have troubles with the schooling! But, it’s gone inspections not a math major in university! That’s where I’ll start. And with that cert, I can very easily get into city and commercial inspections. And from there, I’ll get a beaut of a retirement gig! 

With my background, with my skills and places I’ve worked, this will be a fairly easy transition. I think the hardest thing will be the lack of physical demand in this field, good thing I have Kung fu eh folks!! Hahaha. 

I’m really excited team! I can not wait to be honest! I have a lot to learn and push for, but, I want this real badly. For the last, I do t know, but let’s call it 5 years, I have kept going back to the home inspection at nait. I would love to take astrophysics or some crazy cool stuff like that, but, I can not say that I’ll get there and be content ! I just don’t know about chilling in a desk or lab for the next how many years! So, that’s something I will entertain once I get myself established. 

I have been in touch with a buisness owner in this field and I’ve spoken to real estate agent in the area. There’s room for growth and from what I’ve heard, the real estate agent wouldn’t mind another inspector out here! More variety I was told, some other people are very content out here, content isn’t good, no sir, not when you have this mf’er coming tearing it up! Haha. Get out of my at old man! Time for a change of the guard and it’s now my turn. Soooooo, get out of my way buds!!

Anyhow folks, that’s pretty much all I’ve got. I’m moving forward with this plan. 

I’m scared, I’m nervous, I have to learn so much, how to run buisness networking, and all that other jazz! I’m pumped folks. Absolutely pumped. 

So, I have a few ideas for a company name. I personally like “Dunc’s Inspection Services”. “Big Willy’s Inspections. Or WAWA inspections! I don’t know I’ve got some time! A massive picture of me on the side of the truck in my wrestling gear?? So many options.....

Any ideas? 

Well, I should go and get going on stuff for the day! 

Thanks for listening

Thanks for your time

Mr.Duncan 

Just a good few days.

 Well, hey ya there. How’s everything today? Mine day is significantly better than days of last. I gotta pay attention though, I’ve been caught off guard and lazy and paid dearly for it, just recently! 

Anyhow, a fella looking for a few hands got in touch with me recently and wants to move forward with my employment. So, that’s looking up. It’s not right away, but it is procuring a positive start to 2021! 

I did have faith that the seemingly endless amount of resumes and re-writing of resumes and cover letters, and chasing down leads and phone numbers and text messages and emails....he doesn’t even want to see my resume! “If Mark says your solid, then you’re solid man!! I’ll be in touch. Around the 10th. It’s the best I can do to get you some cash for Xmas. Hopefully work into the spring as well.”  My reputation has stood forth and he’s talked to that guy about me. Mark’s one of the foreman that fought for me to be on his crew! I knew that my efforts and reputation would mean something.

I gosh darn well knew it friends! Gotta start over with these guys and that’s just fine. Smaller company. I like smaller crews. Anything over 20 is just too much for me to enjoy! 

But, what about re-education and personal investments? I know, I know. That’s coming too. I have an incredible 2021 plan on paper thus far. We have a plan set up! There’s a few massive changes that my wife and I have “planned” for! A few either massive changes to her career or possibly no changes at all! It’s one of those, we HAVE to be patient and see how the cards pan out for her. Either way, for her, she will gather success in her field. On me though, is I need to be the support person! So one plan, is she is asked/given a presidency position for a few months, until elections in the fall! That drastically changes the financial situation, but her “free time” she will loose! The nature of the beast. If that’s the case, I have to stay close to home. 

The other scenario is, she doesn’t get given the seat and nothing changes for her right now, therefore I can work wherever I am able to build bank again. 

The final big scenario is, she waits until fall for the seat to open, runs and wins! Which between you and me, she has the seat by a large margin as of now! Then in the fall, the massive changes would take place! 

We aren’t greedy people! I would love to have like big old trucks and side by sides and boats and planes and stuff! Sure that’s be cool! But, we don’t need nor do we want those things! We, the family, want to be happy and joyous! That’s it! I want to be able to feed and provide, but I don’t want the mansion. I’d rather have a log cabin and buy land and honestly set up my own sanctuary. That’s my retirement gig folks to be very honest. Listen, I’d love to have like a quarter section and yeah, fence it up! To try to keep the humans out.

If you set yourself up, you honestly only need ten acres and you can raise and feed he family on it! It’s more ingenuity than anything else. You can grow certain foods all year around, just gotta set up for it. Really not overly hard, just a lot of prep work and paying attention to details. 

One day! The dream is there! 

Well, kept going with Kung fu these last few days. Not the best outing, but outings none the less. I do find that, I don’t want half ass the few forms I do do. So, I work at being calculated and things are proper. Basic training again. That’s chill. But that can not be the underlying motivation to next year! It was okay to get me okayishly motivated. I need to properly engage and be there. Ask the questions and yup go to class! I don’t have to wait until next year either....so there’s that massive tidbit for me to chew on. It is what I need is more Kung fu in my life. Go ahead and just do Kung fu! 

.......Being nicer to myself...... Yuppers! I need to do some serious work here friends! Hahahahaaaaaaa. 

So, well, I suppose for now, I guess I’ll let you go than! 

Okay thanks for your time!

Mr.Duncan

See you! Bye bye! 

There is no more else

You’ve hit the end

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 Hey there! Boy that sun is bright today! Feels good man. I’ve spent some time just being in the sun today. Out with my dog and such. It feels good to just be here. 

I’m really enjoying the sun. Gonna go and fire off my wee rifle today. I got ‘er straightened out now! Had a reload and accuracy issues. Reloading is simple enough. Just can be lengthy. Gotta find the bullet that works with the rifle. Every gun is peculiar about what it’ll eat. Some don’t care and eat anything you feed it. Not mine. That’s cool. The accuracy is simple enough. It’s practice and finding that sweet spot. I changed out three different front site! This one is nice. Not awkward at all anymore. My last outing I changed my grip and stance up a bit whamo big difference. Jumped from 30-50% to hitting 85-90% of the time in hitting a four inch target at 35 yards!! That’s money! Finally! Now I can move on to longer range!! That’s not my freezer filler, oh god no. I’m at like 95 all day. Laziness costs me that last bit..

Any how. Ive been really putting up a fight with wanting to push to exercise and actually really train hard. This weekend I found the heavy bag again and starting practicing parts of Da Mu Hsing again. I just kinda stood there with my punching bag, at first, like seeing an old friend for thee first time in a decade. It’s hard to smile lately but... I was smiling. Kung fu has always been a beaut! A solid help to escape reality and focus on me, for what ever reason I always put myself last. I literally got lost in my mind and I had convinced myself that it wasn’t worth the time and blah blah. I hate how I twist up like that. And like the thing is, is Ive worked hard to figure myself out and trained my mind to work with my heart and what the happened? What have I neglected?  

It’s like I get so far and I start doing better than I think I deserve and some how always manage to screw things up. Like how did I manage this disaster now? Oh man...

But you know what? Imma tell you, a teammate reached out with some work prospects like hey what about this? Seems cool! Thanks that was a solid lift! 

I’m glad you reached out Sifu Lindstrom. Thank you! 

Small gestures like a simple hey check this out, it can mean a lot, especially since I only get no thanks response emails. I said to myself see people do care. 

Any which other way, I don’t know much else from here peeps, I’m excited an new year is starting soon... The day it’s like a solid finish line in a year of nightmares. Eh?!? Good gracious... And I’ve had it not that bad. It sucked, but I come out alive and still with a great family. So it wasn’t that bad. Could have been worse I do suppose. Perspective kinda sucked at times, but I’m getting there! Ha. Thankfully it was what I could take, and I’ll get through! I got faith man! No bad days; only bad moments. Ask faithfully where am I? What am I doing? Act with faith! It’s gonna be okay! 

Anyhow, goals I have to get together. This year back I knew was gonna be a bit of a rough time getting things flowing and working together again. So the numbers and results I put up where actually pretty poor. And I’ll own that. Didn’t follow through on much when it came to what I said I was gonna do. I nailed the blogging! Only missed one, so...Almost nailed it... All outside events aside I didn’t produce so, I think I want to o build a goal around just staying consistent...oh wait those are already there... well...”would ya look at that? Just gotta stop and just look at it sometimes! Look at that!!” 

This IHC has been laid out and put on paper as a known result producer. Simply comes down to personal application. I gotta stop burning myself at the stake and be nicer to me  I should start by training...what is this rocket clock building? No it’s Kung fu and it means so much, so stop ignoring it! 

Well, guess it’s that time again. Nothing left besides actions...

Talk at ya later folks. 

Mr.Duncan 

Pew pew days!!

Well, here we go! Hanging in there. These last bits been a struggle. I mean, I’m no different than the majority of people out there, I’m just grateful to have had such a good paying job for as long as I did! 

I’m assured this can’t last for ever, but with the way things are looking, yeah, this is going to last for at least another year and the regulations put in place, you might as well as thrown spagetti at a wall and called it safe measures for the public. What an absolute embarrassment out of our premier. Just.....you didn’t listen to the dr’s you don’t listen to your own advisors, you’re useless and you should be ripped out of office and held accountable in a public square....tar, feathers and rocks. It’s been too long since we as a society have actually held these politicians accountable. 

Things would change if we did....I’ll lite the fuse friends! I’ll stand front and center! I have to stop here! I can’t handle the crap anymore....

So, instead of going insane, I’ve called to talk to Gramps and see if he needs any help! No answer! Tried the home phone, no answer...umm, honey, I gotta go check on Gramps! He’s not answering his phone! I have to go like right now! Oh thankfully, Gramps is okay, he’s deaf and his tv was on at darn near full blast! Whew!!! Oh and grandma is working from home...oh goodness you scared me Gramps! Haha. He took a small tumble and he’s kinda buggered up. He will not go to the hospital, I’m fine. I’m just fine. I fell I didn’t die for Christ sakes...okay Gramps. You’re spot on old man!! He’s a tough old bugger. Grew up a cowboy, worked iron for 30ish years, and I mean he’s my grandpa. Toughest, sweetest best person I have ever known. Huge expectations! Tough growing up under him, big boots to fill, but, I try hard to make him proud of me! He’s hired some guy to do a bunch of work on the farm and I suggested I’ll do that for ya Gramps! You paid that guy for that? Shoot Gramps, just call! Only payment I’ll ask for is to be able to go shooting when I would like to! Farms cleaned up for the season. Just go shooting will!! You’ve earned you’re place out here! A small compliment from Gramps is not something you normally get, let alone a conversation! Ha, I’d sit in the tractor with Gramps for hours and we wouldn’t say too much. I’d go out for coffees and it’s quiet. No need! Only fools carry on Will! Only speak when you have too, that way people have to listen! Don’t speak or say more than what you have to say! To the point and leave it! 

Follow me...I grew up hanging out on the farm. My grandparents farm has always been my escape. When things where bad at home, I’d try to get out to the farm. When I was alone fighting the world, I go to the farm. Whenever I needed an escape the farm was always there for me. I have spent so much time on the farm, working cattle, fixing fences, corralling cattle, chasing bulls, clearing out coyotes, picking rocks, or just playing with my cap guns out in the field! “Grandma, there was an army of bad guys coming to get us, but I took cover by the grain bins and got them all grandma! No more bad guys here!” Grandma would just smile and ask about what happened and how did I get all those soldiers! Grandma, I’m a ninja. They can’t get me. I have my trusty 6-shooters. None of them can out draw me!! I had two metal six-shooter cap guns! Had my own cowboy hat and Grandma had a leather smith build a belt, holsters and chaps for me to go play with and honestly, I always had them on! In the tractor, fixing fences, I had those “pistols” with us and I protected everyone! Haha  oh to be 25 again...oh I mean 5 years old....

 There is a spot of a forest out there, in particular, sitting right in the rivers edge. There’s a very old home from around 50-70 years ago. Hard to tell! Nobody really knows for certain. Mother Nature has taken the house and yard back, but, as a child and still today, I like to just go and sit down there. No noise, no guns, that all stays up on top of the hill. Just be by myself. Be lost in my thoughts and mind! No matter how shitty my situation at home, no matter how bad the ass kicking I got, I always found peace out there, on that tree stump, next to the delapetated home of folks of the past! Just sit and be! Still today, if you know what to look for, you can sometimes find momentous from how many years ago!  It many, I’ve cleaned most of it up. The woodpecker out there, I don’t know if it’s the same one, but, every single time I go there old woody the woodpecker pounds me a song! I never forget to thank him! He’s my boy! Or girl! Whatever, it’s my bud! 

Anyhow I was off on a different planet. Loaded up my arsenal and took off to the shooters corner. And I’m walking and walking. I’m focusing on my steps, focus on nature! Focus on where I am and what I’m doing! I loose focus on the insanity around me. I literally open the first cattle gate to pass through and it’s like there’s a wall there. An invisible wall that blocks all the bullshit. After here, you can no longer hear the noise of people or tractors or chainsaws! It’s so quiet. My first hundred yards of walking is where the cattle hang for the winter! Hey cows! I stop and take a gander. Not many left! Gramps is too old. They stare at me and I stare at them! And so I carry on south east. It’s open field that ties into the beginnings of a forest and pasture to the south! I used to play in there, in that forest. It’s grown much since my childhood. Fond memeries of chasing bad guys and setting up forts! I stopped yesterday and just looked and reminisced about the past. And i carry on, almost there, kind of. We walk down into a bit of a valley, or we can jump the fence and zig-zag. Watch the old barbed wire fence, I guess that wasn’t needed to get cleaned up...spring time I suppose! That’s a lot of barbed wire!! Gonna need a truck and reels and better gloves! Almost. We have crossed the last fence line. The final couple hundred yards! No we walk out if this small valley and up on top of a small hill! There’s another larger hill directly north of me! I walk to the top of that hill, pull out the binoculars and do the triple check for humans hanging around. Found a deee carcass...looks like coyotes got her. And they are still close by! Hmm looks fresh, tracks are still fresh, as in the snow hasn’t crusted yet, telling me, this was less than 24hrs old! Leave it be, that’s for the coyotes! I’ll go back for some of the bones in the spring time. Mother Nature at her most raw moments. Understand the life cycle and how the food chain works, outside of humans! 

And so, I continue back to my shooting position to get set up! Down the hill into a small valley, with dense trees surrounding me! You can not see me from anywhere on the land except for on the hill to the north and immediately besides me! My shell from the world! I don’t just smash rounds through any of my guns, no matter how tempting it is to just spew rounds down range! Nope, I spent good money on these rounds and it’s going to count! My friend does reloading and I spend $1.50 a round from him! They are well worth it! But my other rifle costs ten cents to shoot, but still, I take my time. And my new gun is around 75 cents a round. Every shot counts folks! Yes, I do enjoy loading up the 22 and dumping that mag in like 30sexonds, but, it’s not the easiest on the gun. Especially in below zero temps! The guns cool and heat up so fast, you have to be careful, the heat distortion and moisture build up can wreck your gun! But, just below zero is a great temp to shoot at. Truly is! Just be cautious. 

In any event, yesterday, I’ve got my phone playing music quietly, ear plugs in, can only hear my thoughts and the soft hum of a familiar tune! ! I have no one around, no one is bugging me, I have terrible reception. Perfect! Even my missus is like, are you going shooting? Can you? Please? You always come home so much calmer and happier. It’s okay Will, go shooting! I’m there for a few hours plugging away. Shooting, making notes, shooting, inspecting, checking targets, making more notes, and double checking ammo selections, watching my groups, making stance adjustments and so on! Breaking down and rebuilding my firearms in the field! Looking for any kind of distortion! What’s working nicely in these conditions and what’s being stubborn. Stupid Winchester rounds, be better! Not one thing on my mind outside of accuracy and guns!! Love it!! 

Suns going down and winds picking up! Temps dropped about 5 degrees in as many minuets. Time to head back! Not one piece of garbage, it drives me nuts when I see garbage on the farm, I literally get instantly pissed when there’s trash out there! I’m walking out of where I have spent my day and sifu text comes through! Oh well that’s really cool! Checking in and seeing how a fella is! Solid! It honestly was a perfect ending to a perfect day! Made me feel good! I mean, I was feeling very good about shooting and just stress free, and then Big Bossman Brinker is texting to see how I am! Really made my day. Thanks I appreciate the reach out. 

I wish I could say how great and amazing I am doing! But lets be honest, I’m here and one foot in front of the other. Insomnia...check, lack of appetite...check! Perfect, going just how I planned! This too will pass, and with faith and time we as a society just might be able to get out of this in one piece...let’s just stick together, do what’s right for the greater good and you know what, we will pick up the pieces and rebuild, like humans have done for thousands of years. We have to stick together as a collective and take care of each other. 

I’m all done caring about feelings and emotions. Be part of the solution or honestly get out of the way. I don’t give a crap about your ability to go buy pointless plastic and rubber shit that you won’t use in a months time...We need to move on and the stupid mask/race division is embarrassing. Just wear it and quite being disrespecting your fellow humans!  I have view points about a certain generation leaving before we can honestly start moving forward! Be a member of society. Stand up for the weak and vulnerable. Help each other and by god, if you’re going to run off at the mouth, at least have the gumption to have a respectful conversation either way of your stance. Use facts and proper English or just keep quiet! Back to grandpas words of wisdom. Keyboard warriors, need to get tarred and feathered with some of these politicians.......

Anyhow, I feel I’ve rambled on long enough. 

Thanks for your time folks! 

Hopefully I’ll see you soon. 

Mr.Duncan. 

Staying Alive

 Good day. So I’m writing this blog. I have two others written, but, I’m writing another. I really don’t know what to say or do anymore. 

I said to heck with everything and I’ve been in contact with nait. I’d like to re-educate myself, but, in what and where I don’t know. I know going back to school at my age can be done. I see it all the time. Made some calls got some more directions with nait! This adult thing sucks man. Got solid numbers for actual life costs abouff if going to school...Whew! Overwhelming, but it’s okay. I see the mountain for what it is now, not what I thought it was!   

Honestly though. I don’t know what I’d like to do. I’m past my prime for what I really felt my calling was and that’s okay. I would have made a hell of a cage fighter, boxer, pro wrestler. I’m not getting my brains rattled at this age. I have enough things loose up there. Time to let go! 

So, I’ve played with power engineering and a couple of classes like that. I’m starting to understand you need to try to find a job in this field before, would be best. It’s more if an apprenticeship I guess? This field can be broken into how I’m going about it, I think it’s the much harder way. I am not known for doing things the easy way! Haha. I’m waiting for further conversation for the ABSA before I invest too much else in this specifically  

(Insert crappy late night telemarketing music)

Do you need heavy stuff picked up moved over there and put down? Do you need someone who can live on caffeine and nicotine, understands old man slang, is hip with young kid mumble and all sorts of in between. Do you need a guy who likes digging out trenches by hand because, heck, can’t let the backhoe have all the fun!! Do you need someone to climb this skinny colum 60ft up, hold on with his teeth and then just hang out while you swing more hunks of steel at his face and he asks for more please sir? Do you have a neighbor that causes you headaches, migraines or other pain in the ass symptoms and just need them to stop? Than look no further I’m your man! Just call 1-800-NO-SWEAT and prepare to have your dreams come true! For all you discouraging barking dogs, convincing loud neighbours to stop, re-educating the persons who owe you money or simply installing pipelines from your friends well to yours! I can do it! That’s 1-800-NO-SWEAT. 

Prepare for the everyone’s favourite part!! All this and more for four simple easy payments of 49.99 daily! I take all payments plus more!! What’s better no taxes! We don’t talk about 1-800-NO-SWEAT outside of this!! 

Don’t delay call today 1-800-NO-SWEAT  

Haha!! Ahhh gotta be able to laugh at ourselves! 

I have never really invested in me. And well, I should have. I truly didn’t think I needed to outside of working like a demons do adapting physically when needed to. It’s okay. The writing is on the wall, time to change time to adapt. This one, it’s gonna be a huge shift. Anyways I’m not absolutely  sure what I want to study but I do have to refresh up. Thankfully nait has some free online classes, with more that I can study and review. Ha! Awesome. More fractions. And I did learn I don’t like nouns!! 

Okay. I have a small confession. Secretly, I’ve always liked math. I mean. Like like math! Yeah I secretly like math that much! I wish I could write out and under stand or strive to some of the equations these math guys use! I wish I had the knowledge to write these formulas out and look for improvement like scientists do! I’d like to be able to take each part of , for instance theory of relativity and be able explain it to someone. Or the physics behind Hawkins radiation. That stuff is super cool man. Nothing can exit a black hole, except for the surplus of addition energy that’s exchanged for gamma radiation? What? Theoretical physics is a really cool place! String theories and molecular manipulation and what exists as we see it, doesn’t quite exist as we see it! Multiple universes! Oh the possibilities for our societies and progress! The tech we have in space was proven on earth! We may not get to play with it all, but the mathematics are there! The blueprints to everything in the universe is written somehow in our mathematics. And that has always blown me away! The way is in the math! Be able to have an understanding of physics and mathematics where I can just visualize things like that. I know it’s far cry from what and who I am! Haha! 

Who knows where I can go from here...

Well that was drawn out eh!! No matter thanks for your time

Mr.Duncan 

 Anyhow. This year much like for many many others has been horrible. I am no lone soldier in this one folks. Pandemic, no pandemic like what the happened. 

I cannot put into word this year. I was back in contact with my daughter. Oh man. What a feeling. I was on cloud nine. So badly I wanted to be dad and get to know her and hang out and such. She started with great interest, mind you, she’s a 16 kid that’s probably really confused. Growing up with no dad he’s never around. He never wanted you. And to find out your dad is not only missing you like crazy, that he wants you in his life. He never wanted you to leave and court orders and lies and deceit kept him away. Doesn’t know what to think. I’ll let her reach to me I suppose. She won’t return calls and texts. I’ll wait some more...

My new career, boy friends I was killing it. I had earned more than respect from my crew members. I have had inspectors and engineers write recommendations and write character letters for me and they sent them directly to the big bosses. Inspectors would walk past my foreman and talk to me. I would politely direct them to the boss and they looked confused that I wasn’t running the crew. No sweat I’d say. Give me time. I had not only gone outta my way to meet people build relationships outside of work, I had honestly started shifting my life towards this career. My wife and I had made plans that give me time to establish myself here and we potentially will move here. Found some land. Was more than willing to grow and take over this company.  I worked my way to the top of the boys and was going to take bigger steps. I had worked lined up until Xmas with steady income into next summer...the boss looked dead in my eyes and said you will not have to worry  you will be okay! Wow that’s great to hear! And I worked harder! I meant it when I said I was working so hard I would puke up parts of my lunches! I meant it when I said I was the guy who no problem would put in 12-14hr days and only get paid for 11! That’s what you do when you want what I had! You earn it! 

And, unfortuanatly, my gosh darned family decided she needed free money from the hand that feeds us and we, my brother and I both lost our careers over someone else taking money. Then when I question said person it’s my fault. I’m the asshole for her putting stolen money that I didn’t know about on my cheques, when I very clearly stated to her, I can not loose this gig! Stop doing that please, I do not want to leave! These guys treat me like gold, do not do this to me....low and behold...I was treated like the criminal and got fired, and this other person managed to save her career, by throwing me and my brother under the bus....

So now what? I ask this question over and over. I’ve honestly lost a lot of desire. I’m having a hard time training because, I do not see the light. The purposeful driven reasoning I have carried, I don’t see the value in it anymore. I won’t be competing in tournaments, I don’t fight in the streets anymore! I’m so extremely depressed, I just don’t care. Let’s as a society just get to this revolution already. It’s time we as a group of citizens start fighting back. 

I can’t handle this pandemic bullshit anymore. I think this is embarrassing and ridiculous. We have managed to crippled how many people across the world for an advanced flu. A flu that is targeting an aging population and truly only disrupting 1-3% of a population. Yeah let’s cripple the world for some old people that are, let’s be honest, going to pass within the next few months maybe years if they are lucky. Don’t you care about the older people? I do! I also recognize the fact that everyone dies! Not always do we get to go how we want! No, you think I’m wrong? Ask the pipelined who just got crushed on site who had four little kids, the car accident victim that got smoked by a drunk driver cut outta their prime...but lets cripple the entire world for a bunch of people who quiet honestly are burdens on society and holding the rest of us back from moving on in these times. 

I am really sick of these fn boomers who had every single support network, had a booming world from rebuilding after the world wars, have purposely driven up the prices with greed and capitalism and then, when their system fails that I have been forced into, it’s my fault....duck iffboomer and get Covid and let the rest of us change and move on! Racism is honestly an old person thought and if we could rid of the majority of these bigots their voices will eventually disappear and we can quite fighting over a skin pigmentation! I don’t understand why we still treat others like half rate citizens? It blows me away! And I have gotten into near fist fights telling people to shove their ignorant views! I’m done listening to bullshit! Gonna start putting people to sleep! 

That’s another thing  whatever happened to a simple punch in the lips for running off when you should be listening or not talking! Just because you have an opinion doesn’t mean anyone cares about it! Mine included  I understand! But if gotta listen to how terrible of a person I am, because its simply treason you adulterated our Canadian flag with rainbows, that’s flat out wrong! You want a pride flag awesome, stop disrespecting every god damn person that has died in a war or fought for our freedoms. That’s entitlement at it’s finest. 

You know something, I’ve said this how many times, but, it’s extremely audacious and ignorant of us, as a species, to feel so entitled that we think we deserve to be on this planet for ever....listen. How many mass species die offs have happens on this planet? Here we are, crying because our time is running out? Have some pride and act like a respectable human. It’s called evolution. We have hidden behind science and doctors with our illnesses for how many decades. Yes science and medicine has greatly advanced our life expectancy! Sure has, but with all the medicines and over medications, we are creating super bugs. Covid is not a super bug. Never has been. The actual pandemic that’s coming from this “pandemic” is going to gut us as a society. You don’t honestly sit there and think that we will be here forever do you? Yes every life is valuable, but, since we listen to Mother Nature so much, pay attention to what she is saying. We have over-populated and destroyed this planet. Mother Nature has found a way to be done with the old and weak. And her we are screaming at each other over a piece of cloth, that statiscally shown have shown it doesn’t work like everyone thought. If masks where so important and useful, why, oh why are they a thing now? Seems a little weak at this point. People dropping in the streets, like they tried to scare us with in the spring...what’s our rates and numbers? Not even close.