Whoa-ah hey there!

 Well howdy there partners!! I must apologize. I missed my blog last week! That’s two this year I’ve missed...anyhow how was everyone’s holidays? I really hope, no matter what you may celebrate, that you’re time with family was great, if you were able to visit family....Christmas 2020...what a show that was eh!?! 

Any which way, we had a good hollidays. My youngest son has a bday on the 27 of December. He was pretty down about it, because, well, no one was allowed to come. So I talked to my grandparents on the farm. Asked hey, can we come and play in the forests and such on the farm for his bday? Grandma to the rescue! Oh of course honey, just keep away from Gramps! No sweat. We spent the day searching the old homestead on the land, I guess because it’s delapetaded it haunted!! Hahaha. Kids are awesome!! He brought out his little daisy BB gun and was blasting at his targets! He’s not the avid shooter like myself, but his fascination with weapons is very....enthralling I suppose. We fired up the old fire pit and burnt some hotdogs and drank some root beers and Wyatt got to drive the side by side all by himself!! You should have seen his smile! He was so proud of himself. He’s trying to tell Gramps about him driving the unit, but grandpa is deaf and Wyatt speaks quietly, and we had our masks on, and the very distant social visit through the front screen door....grandma had to act as translator for them both!! Hahaha. Three languages she can speak. Old mumbling man, young kid fast talk and English!! Hahahaha. Impressive!! 

Any how onto the next step. The next huge transition. School. I start my classes Jan 4!! I’m super excited. So pumped. No more being covered in mud head to toe with the faint smell of nicotine and caffeine on my breath. Okay, let’s go! 

I have had lots of time to contemplate and figure my life out. My health is still lacking and worsening my throat death dart. My cousins are being ravaged my addictions. My mind kills when I think about not being able to change. So I feel my lesson outta what happened in my family is I have to take that next step first...not in competition. Not to say anyone is better than the others; just simply quite quietly being the one to take that step. It’s been pointed out that a lack of myself in and around the family is noticed and missed. When I sobered up, I honestly cut ALL forms of poison outta my life. As in I do not want you around me or my family if this is how you’re going to act! And I’ve stood firm on that. Some say I’ve missed out on family life and tried to place blame, I disagree I do what I need to do to keep me and my family alive! I do what I need to do to survive man. But overall, I don’t. I still smoke! I still carry old habits and obviously the believes that abusing myself is okay. It’s a financial and health burden that’s gonna hit. And like the dr says...sooner than I expect. 

This has been a crappy enough year and as much as next years gonna hurt, I will still come out on top. There’s a lot changing in me these next few weeks, big changes in the next few days. 

I have to get my goals finished. Life keeps throwing crap at me that stops me from getting my stuff done....or does it? Is it an excuse? Probably nothing  it is. 

So, I said to myself, man, if you want to do this inspector gig and you’re already pulling the plug on one life and pouring from a new life tap, then just finish the changes! I have bought my last pack of smokes yesterday. I simply can not buy anymore. It’s not fair to put my addiction on my wife to carry and pay for...holy adult thoughts...that’s not right. In order for me to succeed to have to quit for me, not them...addiction is simply up to the person! It messes with and affects all, but only the individual can make those changes! 

Besides these facts friends, it’s a whole new world I’m walking into. Why can’t I bring a whole new me to the frame? I have to learn new ways on how to communicate, I’m okay when I want to be, but, that’s not good enough anymore.

What I’m trying to say is me, as I stand here right now, is a beaut of a person, but I can be better. Show by example I say, so I will lead by example. I’m committed to working at my kitchen table until I get this done. By golly miss molly that’s what I’m going to get! 

I have a fairly good regime set up. Morning routines and academic routines and mr. mom built into my daily schedule. I haven’t forgotten about Kung fu, nor will I. It’s built into the mornings and afternoon breaks. I do plan on actually being apart of the school. Sure I’ll be in school, building my mind, failure to think of my physical well being will cause me to fall back into old habits, and my cousin just proved what happens with falling into old habits...it’s a lesson coldly served; ignore it and die or learn and grow. That’s it. That’s the lesson. Now, pick one and don’t look back. Could have just told me that Chase...I miss you cuz! 

So with that I’m going to go for now and get smartened up and learn stuff! 

Thanks for you’re time and I look forward to seeing everyone in class very soon!

Stay smart out there people. 

Mr.Duncan

Speechless, but so much to say

 Well, shucks....2020 just keeps on getting better. My young cousin, I just found out has passed away....His little girl is two Years old. She will never know her daddy. She will never get the lullabies, nor the warm baby hugs she will so very much desire. His wife, now a widow before 30. They won’t get to go on that vacation they always wanted to go on...their business, their dreams...it’s over...

I am left wondering why? For what reason did you do this cousin? So many questions...why man why? You’re kid dude? Did you not think of her? Or how maybe this family needed you? We were going to do great things this next year...we had plans....we were rebuilding our broken family....I guess in your memory cus...

All for what? A 22min high? After such time your chasing the dragon man! I’ve warned you! I’ve told you this will take your life  I’ve said my piece and our worst fears came true....

You were unable to kick the suicide of your oldest brother, I’m sorry you could not see through the darkness  I’m so god damn sorry, your light at the end of the tunnel was blurred by confusion and hatred. I’m sorry you stayed in the darkness until it consumed you so...I tried to lead a life worth following! I tried so hard to show a better way of life that didn’t involve destroying yourself. The examples we lead are meant for learning tools for our younger generations. Doesn’t matter anymore. No matter what Chase, no matter what, I’ve always loved you cousin. I loved you when I didn’t recognize you when you were found in the streets puking heroin up! I loved you when you couldn’t contain or control those demons and you disappeared on us...I loved you when you where broken desperate and just wanted a hug man! 

This breaks my heart...man alive Chase....

Mental health has taken another beautiful person.....it’s so hard when you’re so depressed that everything wants to get you and take you down...I get it cousin...I get it... I wish I didn’t understand, it’d be easier to stay ignorant, but, I know exactly where you where and I know exactly how terrible it is to come out of that hole, I was very very very lucky, I got out alive. I’m sorry you weren’t able to get out man.............I’m so sorry.....

I have no more words! I don’t know what else to say....I love you Chase! I miss you immensely cuz! Until that glorious day where we can meet again. I truly hope your suffering has ended, we will deal with the pain and suffering here. Take care knowing we will rebuild in your memory and continue to try our best! 

Bye for now cuzzzzz! 

Love you, 

Your cousin, you’re friend, you’re brother in arms, your supporter, you’re reality check, whatever hat I needed to wear with you, I wore it! Until we meet again.....

I will say this, and try not to take this the wrong way, I’m emotional and very very pissed off!! BUT, I swear to all that’s holy, if I catch just one person on this team falling down into hard drugs and you won’t ask for help, I’m going to rock you’re world. That’s not a threat either folks...that’s a Willy Duncan guarantee!  If you need help please for the love of god,  start asking for help! Please!! I’ve buried enough friends and family due to drugs and alcoholism...please just reach out to anyone...anyone...please...if you won’t do it for yourself, than look at your kids eyes and do it for them! If you don’t have kids, think of how your parents would enjoy burning a child!

P.S. Mr.pusher man! I know whom you are! I know where you live. I know when and where you peddle! You best hope, I do not catch up with you, my friend! We have already had the conversation. I’m beyond talking.......

 So hey there. I have been like really excited about changing directions in life and man I’m nervous. But, so far the most exciting thing I’ve found, is I get to really work on a part of my personality that’s lacked for a long time. People skills. I don’t have a lot of them and I’m going to have to learn how to build a clientele. Making small talk, meaningful, but small talk! I’m not a fan of it! 

So, in order for this new life to completely come together, not only do I have to learn a whole new part of construction, I, by default, get to work on my greatest character defect! 

Good gracious....hahaha. Yeah I had the same thought! I can’t go beating people until their moral improves. Not any more, I suppose! This isn’t the pipeline bro, this is actually the Alberta licensing office...let go of him Will. You need this guy alive!! Hahaha. 

No swearing I can’t throw stuff at my co-workers and laugh! If you can dodge a wrench you can dodge a ball!! You know or laugh when we fall down the mud stairs face first in the mud...wait a second... I’ll be the boss! Yes I can!! Phew! That’s a relief. 

It’s a relief knowing that soon, hopefully, with commitment and hard work, I can honestly be the boss I’ve always wanted to have. One who does care and one who isn’t going to turbo their employees first sign of management! Hot dawg folks. That’s exciting. I’m the management!!

Tick Tock

 Howdy folks! How’s it today? It’s good here. So, well, life has decided to curve ball me again! So that’s cool. At this point, whatever, bring it on!! 

 I had a job come up. This new boss gave me less than 24hrs notice to be on site, four hours away. After I pay, out of pocket, for site orientations and do that garbage online! So I did the math, after travel costs, hotels, food, all other my expensive to go to work for less than a week and come home to sit again I’d come home with 500$ if I eat the daily special at McDonald’s and 300$ if I eat like a human...well, I very politely declined this job. My temper flared up, when I read his hurry up and get here bs text! The thing I can not stand is, yes, I was asking for work, but, because of a lack of planning and communication does not constitute an emergency on my part....sorry, not my problem! 

 This is the garbage I no longer desire to deal with. I made sure to tell the owner how much I appreciate his efforts to try to get me some cash. He really didn’t need to even answer my text last month. And I consider, what he did to try to find work for me is above and beyond what a lot of people are doing right now. Solid cat! 

Honestly folks, I was dreading getting back into pipelines and construction. My stress and temper has really started to flare up. So what to do? The missus and I have a solid plan about moving forward. 

We had another solid conversation about going back to work! I expressed how much I’m sick of chasing the dollar bill and how I’m so sick of pouring absolutely everything I have into someone else’s dream and company. I’m so sick and tired of making a huge profit for someone else, breaking my body, sacrificing my family for some dude who writes my cheques? Does he even know my name?  

I told her, I am not doing that anymore! I won’t. I have no problem suffering and struggling for me and my family! But, I’m not doing it for some corporate pig anymore. So, we decided, that I’m going to school on Jan 4! Pulled the trigger people. I said to heck with this. I’m going to work for me from now on! 

That’s correct I start school on Jan 4! I’m starting with hone inspection certificate at nait. I will have a company within a calendar year and that’s the end of that! It could take up to 8 months to get this very, if I have troubles with the schooling! But, it’s gone inspections not a math major in university! That’s where I’ll start. And with that cert, I can very easily get into city and commercial inspections. And from there, I’ll get a beaut of a retirement gig! 

With my background, with my skills and places I’ve worked, this will be a fairly easy transition. I think the hardest thing will be the lack of physical demand in this field, good thing I have Kung fu eh folks!! Hahaha. 

I’m really excited team! I can not wait to be honest! I have a lot to learn and push for, but, I want this real badly. For the last, I do t know, but let’s call it 5 years, I have kept going back to the home inspection at nait. I would love to take astrophysics or some crazy cool stuff like that, but, I can not say that I’ll get there and be content ! I just don’t know about chilling in a desk or lab for the next how many years! So, that’s something I will entertain once I get myself established. 

I have been in touch with a buisness owner in this field and I’ve spoken to real estate agent in the area. There’s room for growth and from what I’ve heard, the real estate agent wouldn’t mind another inspector out here! More variety I was told, some other people are very content out here, content isn’t good, no sir, not when you have this mf’er coming tearing it up! Haha. Get out of my at old man! Time for a change of the guard and it’s now my turn. Soooooo, get out of my way buds!!

Anyhow folks, that’s pretty much all I’ve got. I’m moving forward with this plan. 

I’m scared, I’m nervous, I have to learn so much, how to run buisness networking, and all that other jazz! I’m pumped folks. Absolutely pumped. 

So, I have a few ideas for a company name. I personally like “Dunc’s Inspection Services”. “Big Willy’s Inspections. Or WAWA inspections! I don’t know I’ve got some time! A massive picture of me on the side of the truck in my wrestling gear?? So many options.....

Any ideas? 

Well, I should go and get going on stuff for the day! 

Thanks for listening

Thanks for your time

Mr.Duncan 

Just a good few days.

 Well, hey ya there. How’s everything today? Mine day is significantly better than days of last. I gotta pay attention though, I’ve been caught off guard and lazy and paid dearly for it, just recently! 

Anyhow, a fella looking for a few hands got in touch with me recently and wants to move forward with my employment. So, that’s looking up. It’s not right away, but it is procuring a positive start to 2021! 

I did have faith that the seemingly endless amount of resumes and re-writing of resumes and cover letters, and chasing down leads and phone numbers and text messages and emails....he doesn’t even want to see my resume! “If Mark says your solid, then you’re solid man!! I’ll be in touch. Around the 10th. It’s the best I can do to get you some cash for Xmas. Hopefully work into the spring as well.”  My reputation has stood forth and he’s talked to that guy about me. Mark’s one of the foreman that fought for me to be on his crew! I knew that my efforts and reputation would mean something.

I gosh darn well knew it friends! Gotta start over with these guys and that’s just fine. Smaller company. I like smaller crews. Anything over 20 is just too much for me to enjoy! 

But, what about re-education and personal investments? I know, I know. That’s coming too. I have an incredible 2021 plan on paper thus far. We have a plan set up! There’s a few massive changes that my wife and I have “planned” for! A few either massive changes to her career or possibly no changes at all! It’s one of those, we HAVE to be patient and see how the cards pan out for her. Either way, for her, she will gather success in her field. On me though, is I need to be the support person! So one plan, is she is asked/given a presidency position for a few months, until elections in the fall! That drastically changes the financial situation, but her “free time” she will loose! The nature of the beast. If that’s the case, I have to stay close to home. 

The other scenario is, she doesn’t get given the seat and nothing changes for her right now, therefore I can work wherever I am able to build bank again. 

The final big scenario is, she waits until fall for the seat to open, runs and wins! Which between you and me, she has the seat by a large margin as of now! Then in the fall, the massive changes would take place! 

We aren’t greedy people! I would love to have like big old trucks and side by sides and boats and planes and stuff! Sure that’s be cool! But, we don’t need nor do we want those things! We, the family, want to be happy and joyous! That’s it! I want to be able to feed and provide, but I don’t want the mansion. I’d rather have a log cabin and buy land and honestly set up my own sanctuary. That’s my retirement gig folks to be very honest. Listen, I’d love to have like a quarter section and yeah, fence it up! To try to keep the humans out.

If you set yourself up, you honestly only need ten acres and you can raise and feed he family on it! It’s more ingenuity than anything else. You can grow certain foods all year around, just gotta set up for it. Really not overly hard, just a lot of prep work and paying attention to details. 

One day! The dream is there! 

Well, kept going with Kung fu these last few days. Not the best outing, but outings none the less. I do find that, I don’t want half ass the few forms I do do. So, I work at being calculated and things are proper. Basic training again. That’s chill. But that can not be the underlying motivation to next year! It was okay to get me okayishly motivated. I need to properly engage and be there. Ask the questions and yup go to class! I don’t have to wait until next year either....so there’s that massive tidbit for me to chew on. It is what I need is more Kung fu in my life. Go ahead and just do Kung fu! 

.......Being nicer to myself...... Yuppers! I need to do some serious work here friends! Hahahahaaaaaaa. 

So, well, I suppose for now, I guess I’ll let you go than! 

Okay thanks for your time!

Mr.Duncan

See you! Bye bye! 

There is no more else

You’ve hit the end

Press the go back button

Okay! See you soon! 

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 Hey there! Boy that sun is bright today! Feels good man. I’ve spent some time just being in the sun today. Out with my dog and such. It feels good to just be here. 

I’m really enjoying the sun. Gonna go and fire off my wee rifle today. I got ‘er straightened out now! Had a reload and accuracy issues. Reloading is simple enough. Just can be lengthy. Gotta find the bullet that works with the rifle. Every gun is peculiar about what it’ll eat. Some don’t care and eat anything you feed it. Not mine. That’s cool. The accuracy is simple enough. It’s practice and finding that sweet spot. I changed out three different front site! This one is nice. Not awkward at all anymore. My last outing I changed my grip and stance up a bit whamo big difference. Jumped from 30-50% to hitting 85-90% of the time in hitting a four inch target at 35 yards!! That’s money! Finally! Now I can move on to longer range!! That’s not my freezer filler, oh god no. I’m at like 95 all day. Laziness costs me that last bit..

Any how. Ive been really putting up a fight with wanting to push to exercise and actually really train hard. This weekend I found the heavy bag again and starting practicing parts of Da Mu Hsing again. I just kinda stood there with my punching bag, at first, like seeing an old friend for thee first time in a decade. It’s hard to smile lately but... I was smiling. Kung fu has always been a beaut! A solid help to escape reality and focus on me, for what ever reason I always put myself last. I literally got lost in my mind and I had convinced myself that it wasn’t worth the time and blah blah. I hate how I twist up like that. And like the thing is, is Ive worked hard to figure myself out and trained my mind to work with my heart and what the happened? What have I neglected?  

It’s like I get so far and I start doing better than I think I deserve and some how always manage to screw things up. Like how did I manage this disaster now? Oh man...

But you know what? Imma tell you, a teammate reached out with some work prospects like hey what about this? Seems cool! Thanks that was a solid lift! 

I’m glad you reached out Sifu Lindstrom. Thank you! 

Small gestures like a simple hey check this out, it can mean a lot, especially since I only get no thanks response emails. I said to myself see people do care. 

Any which other way, I don’t know much else from here peeps, I’m excited an new year is starting soon... The day it’s like a solid finish line in a year of nightmares. Eh?!? Good gracious... And I’ve had it not that bad. It sucked, but I come out alive and still with a great family. So it wasn’t that bad. Could have been worse I do suppose. Perspective kinda sucked at times, but I’m getting there! Ha. Thankfully it was what I could take, and I’ll get through! I got faith man! No bad days; only bad moments. Ask faithfully where am I? What am I doing? Act with faith! It’s gonna be okay! 

Anyhow, goals I have to get together. This year back I knew was gonna be a bit of a rough time getting things flowing and working together again. So the numbers and results I put up where actually pretty poor. And I’ll own that. Didn’t follow through on much when it came to what I said I was gonna do. I nailed the blogging! Only missed one, so...Almost nailed it... All outside events aside I didn’t produce so, I think I want to o build a goal around just staying consistent...oh wait those are already there... well...”would ya look at that? Just gotta stop and just look at it sometimes! Look at that!!” 

This IHC has been laid out and put on paper as a known result producer. Simply comes down to personal application. I gotta stop burning myself at the stake and be nicer to me  I should start by training...what is this rocket clock building? No it’s Kung fu and it means so much, so stop ignoring it! 

Well, guess it’s that time again. Nothing left besides actions...

Talk at ya later folks. 

Mr.Duncan 

Pew pew days!!

Well, here we go! Hanging in there. These last bits been a struggle. I mean, I’m no different than the majority of people out there, I’m just grateful to have had such a good paying job for as long as I did! 

I’m assured this can’t last for ever, but with the way things are looking, yeah, this is going to last for at least another year and the regulations put in place, you might as well as thrown spagetti at a wall and called it safe measures for the public. What an absolute embarrassment out of our premier. Just.....you didn’t listen to the dr’s you don’t listen to your own advisors, you’re useless and you should be ripped out of office and held accountable in a public square....tar, feathers and rocks. It’s been too long since we as a society have actually held these politicians accountable. 

Things would change if we did....I’ll lite the fuse friends! I’ll stand front and center! I have to stop here! I can’t handle the crap anymore....

So, instead of going insane, I’ve called to talk to Gramps and see if he needs any help! No answer! Tried the home phone, no answer...umm, honey, I gotta go check on Gramps! He’s not answering his phone! I have to go like right now! Oh thankfully, Gramps is okay, he’s deaf and his tv was on at darn near full blast! Whew!!! Oh and grandma is working from home...oh goodness you scared me Gramps! Haha. He took a small tumble and he’s kinda buggered up. He will not go to the hospital, I’m fine. I’m just fine. I fell I didn’t die for Christ sakes...okay Gramps. You’re spot on old man!! He’s a tough old bugger. Grew up a cowboy, worked iron for 30ish years, and I mean he’s my grandpa. Toughest, sweetest best person I have ever known. Huge expectations! Tough growing up under him, big boots to fill, but, I try hard to make him proud of me! He’s hired some guy to do a bunch of work on the farm and I suggested I’ll do that for ya Gramps! You paid that guy for that? Shoot Gramps, just call! Only payment I’ll ask for is to be able to go shooting when I would like to! Farms cleaned up for the season. Just go shooting will!! You’ve earned you’re place out here! A small compliment from Gramps is not something you normally get, let alone a conversation! Ha, I’d sit in the tractor with Gramps for hours and we wouldn’t say too much. I’d go out for coffees and it’s quiet. No need! Only fools carry on Will! Only speak when you have too, that way people have to listen! Don’t speak or say more than what you have to say! To the point and leave it! 

Follow me...I grew up hanging out on the farm. My grandparents farm has always been my escape. When things where bad at home, I’d try to get out to the farm. When I was alone fighting the world, I go to the farm. Whenever I needed an escape the farm was always there for me. I have spent so much time on the farm, working cattle, fixing fences, corralling cattle, chasing bulls, clearing out coyotes, picking rocks, or just playing with my cap guns out in the field! “Grandma, there was an army of bad guys coming to get us, but I took cover by the grain bins and got them all grandma! No more bad guys here!” Grandma would just smile and ask about what happened and how did I get all those soldiers! Grandma, I’m a ninja. They can’t get me. I have my trusty 6-shooters. None of them can out draw me!! I had two metal six-shooter cap guns! Had my own cowboy hat and Grandma had a leather smith build a belt, holsters and chaps for me to go play with and honestly, I always had them on! In the tractor, fixing fences, I had those “pistols” with us and I protected everyone! Haha  oh to be 25 again...oh I mean 5 years old....

 There is a spot of a forest out there, in particular, sitting right in the rivers edge. There’s a very old home from around 50-70 years ago. Hard to tell! Nobody really knows for certain. Mother Nature has taken the house and yard back, but, as a child and still today, I like to just go and sit down there. No noise, no guns, that all stays up on top of the hill. Just be by myself. Be lost in my thoughts and mind! No matter how shitty my situation at home, no matter how bad the ass kicking I got, I always found peace out there, on that tree stump, next to the delapetated home of folks of the past! Just sit and be! Still today, if you know what to look for, you can sometimes find momentous from how many years ago!  It many, I’ve cleaned most of it up. The woodpecker out there, I don’t know if it’s the same one, but, every single time I go there old woody the woodpecker pounds me a song! I never forget to thank him! He’s my boy! Or girl! Whatever, it’s my bud! 

Anyhow I was off on a different planet. Loaded up my arsenal and took off to the shooters corner. And I’m walking and walking. I’m focusing on my steps, focus on nature! Focus on where I am and what I’m doing! I loose focus on the insanity around me. I literally open the first cattle gate to pass through and it’s like there’s a wall there. An invisible wall that blocks all the bullshit. After here, you can no longer hear the noise of people or tractors or chainsaws! It’s so quiet. My first hundred yards of walking is where the cattle hang for the winter! Hey cows! I stop and take a gander. Not many left! Gramps is too old. They stare at me and I stare at them! And so I carry on south east. It’s open field that ties into the beginnings of a forest and pasture to the south! I used to play in there, in that forest. It’s grown much since my childhood. Fond memeries of chasing bad guys and setting up forts! I stopped yesterday and just looked and reminisced about the past. And i carry on, almost there, kind of. We walk down into a bit of a valley, or we can jump the fence and zig-zag. Watch the old barbed wire fence, I guess that wasn’t needed to get cleaned up...spring time I suppose! That’s a lot of barbed wire!! Gonna need a truck and reels and better gloves! Almost. We have crossed the last fence line. The final couple hundred yards! No we walk out if this small valley and up on top of a small hill! There’s another larger hill directly north of me! I walk to the top of that hill, pull out the binoculars and do the triple check for humans hanging around. Found a deee carcass...looks like coyotes got her. And they are still close by! Hmm looks fresh, tracks are still fresh, as in the snow hasn’t crusted yet, telling me, this was less than 24hrs old! Leave it be, that’s for the coyotes! I’ll go back for some of the bones in the spring time. Mother Nature at her most raw moments. Understand the life cycle and how the food chain works, outside of humans! 

And so, I continue back to my shooting position to get set up! Down the hill into a small valley, with dense trees surrounding me! You can not see me from anywhere on the land except for on the hill to the north and immediately besides me! My shell from the world! I don’t just smash rounds through any of my guns, no matter how tempting it is to just spew rounds down range! Nope, I spent good money on these rounds and it’s going to count! My friend does reloading and I spend $1.50 a round from him! They are well worth it! But my other rifle costs ten cents to shoot, but still, I take my time. And my new gun is around 75 cents a round. Every shot counts folks! Yes, I do enjoy loading up the 22 and dumping that mag in like 30sexonds, but, it’s not the easiest on the gun. Especially in below zero temps! The guns cool and heat up so fast, you have to be careful, the heat distortion and moisture build up can wreck your gun! But, just below zero is a great temp to shoot at. Truly is! Just be cautious. 

In any event, yesterday, I’ve got my phone playing music quietly, ear plugs in, can only hear my thoughts and the soft hum of a familiar tune! ! I have no one around, no one is bugging me, I have terrible reception. Perfect! Even my missus is like, are you going shooting? Can you? Please? You always come home so much calmer and happier. It’s okay Will, go shooting! I’m there for a few hours plugging away. Shooting, making notes, shooting, inspecting, checking targets, making more notes, and double checking ammo selections, watching my groups, making stance adjustments and so on! Breaking down and rebuilding my firearms in the field! Looking for any kind of distortion! What’s working nicely in these conditions and what’s being stubborn. Stupid Winchester rounds, be better! Not one thing on my mind outside of accuracy and guns!! Love it!! 

Suns going down and winds picking up! Temps dropped about 5 degrees in as many minuets. Time to head back! Not one piece of garbage, it drives me nuts when I see garbage on the farm, I literally get instantly pissed when there’s trash out there! I’m walking out of where I have spent my day and sifu text comes through! Oh well that’s really cool! Checking in and seeing how a fella is! Solid! It honestly was a perfect ending to a perfect day! Made me feel good! I mean, I was feeling very good about shooting and just stress free, and then Big Bossman Brinker is texting to see how I am! Really made my day. Thanks I appreciate the reach out. 

I wish I could say how great and amazing I am doing! But lets be honest, I’m here and one foot in front of the other. Insomnia...check, lack of appetite...check! Perfect, going just how I planned! This too will pass, and with faith and time we as a society just might be able to get out of this in one piece...let’s just stick together, do what’s right for the greater good and you know what, we will pick up the pieces and rebuild, like humans have done for thousands of years. We have to stick together as a collective and take care of each other. 

I’m all done caring about feelings and emotions. Be part of the solution or honestly get out of the way. I don’t give a crap about your ability to go buy pointless plastic and rubber shit that you won’t use in a months time...We need to move on and the stupid mask/race division is embarrassing. Just wear it and quite being disrespecting your fellow humans!  I have view points about a certain generation leaving before we can honestly start moving forward! Be a member of society. Stand up for the weak and vulnerable. Help each other and by god, if you’re going to run off at the mouth, at least have the gumption to have a respectful conversation either way of your stance. Use facts and proper English or just keep quiet! Back to grandpas words of wisdom. Keyboard warriors, need to get tarred and feathered with some of these politicians.......

Anyhow, I feel I’ve rambled on long enough. 

Thanks for your time folks! 

Hopefully I’ll see you soon. 

Mr.Duncan.